Time Loop

Have you ever been
so hurt
you cried
while steering
your direction
back to realization
just to grasp
that no one is there
waiting for you
with a smiling stare

have you ever been
in denial
you struggle
keeping your pose
holding yourself
from shouting his name
begging for reasons
you'll never comprehend

have you ever been
so fake-
you acting so brave
you wreck and torn
but stubbornly return
putting yourself back
hoping that others
won't recognize
the cracks

have you ever been
in loop -
that you wake up
in the morning
just to find
yourself  cried to bed
in the dawn and -
on repeat
on-going
undone

30.4.2019