Chivalry

The only chivalry
I once witnessed
was when your hand
covering my head
protecting my scalp
from soaking wet
boasting to the rain
that nothing would let
not even the sun
could sink my heart
from fluttering to death

Pace

I know
which feet
I'm stomping
I know
each path
I'm marching
I'm not saying
I'm less evil
than you are
I'm saying
I'll do it
in my own par
not sooner
not later
just the right apace
and I'll be better

Loyal

A loyal person
such as me
would never
betray you
my coffee -
though someday
you would kill me
I rather it is you
till eternity

Diversion

I was never
the attention
I was rather
the diversion
when you found
someone fresher
than me;
you'll leave
as if I was
obsolete

ill-wit

I almost tell you
everything
about me
But there's one thing
you'll never
gonna see
The Smirk
in my eyes
when I knew
all of your lies
and let you
act out of it
even laugh
at your  ill-wit

True colour

People
sometimes
read you
in different tone
different perspective
a level of their own
and that's okay
never let that
clarify who you
truly are
you know you
not them

Reflection

Once you
start to judge;
Putting every
words you could find
to define me
to create such a trait
of me -
That's when you
starts reflecting
your own image

Unfamiliar room

How isolated
I am
in this
unfamiliar room
Crowd laughing
back to back
while I'm here
writing this
flack

Skin

if
i
show you
some skin -
would you
spare me
my chagrin?

10-5-2019

What gives

Give
it
a
time.

for heartbreak
for hatred
for heartache
soul conflicted

it all
takes time

to recover
to mend
to start over
to ascend

give
it
a
time

9-5-2019

Spot

Oh,
we've been there
fighting for that spot -
yes, we've done that
we gave our whole heart
for a time
a sight
a date
a spot
your attention -
we did all that
for that spot

since we've
been through
hell for a spot -
that only last
for a week;
we decided
well,
not anymore
no, we're won't

we're done
fighting for that spot
we're through
claiming our dot
we knew
we're better
than that
we deserved
more than
a slat

A spot or not
it's not
a definition
of our happiness
a spot or not
we'll decide
whether
we're up for that
we'll pave the path
give it a name
claim our fame
that requires
nobody's acclaim

9-5-2019

Restrain order

I'm retaining
myself
from saying
things
that's going
to kill you
literally -

walk in my shoes
sleep in my blanket
speak in silence
spare me my death

just as
I'm restraining
it's better
if you
should too
don't cut me
when I'm believing
as your promises
will come due

Vow

Such
a promising
vow -
but yet
here I am
alone
without you
somehow

Memory

How can
a memory
be so painful
it changed

from

             "still the one"

to

             "used to be faithful"

3-5-2019

Man of many things

He's the man
that promised me
the moon
but killed
the sun

He's the man
that took care of me
but put me
as his guarantee

He's the man
who purvey and produce
but composed
songs of excuses

He's the man
of mystery
that one person
I couldn't predict
that one person
I failed to verdict

He's the man
of many things
Many Things -
Excluding me

2-5-2019

Time Loop

Have you ever been
so hurt
you cried
while steering
your direction
back to realization
just to grasp
that no one is there
waiting for you
with a smiling stare

have you ever been
in denial
you struggle
keeping your pose
holding yourself
from shouting his name
begging for reasons
you'll never comprehend

have you ever been
so fake-
you acting so brave
you wreck and torn
but stubbornly return
putting yourself back
hoping that others
won't recognize
the cracks

have you ever been
in loop -
that you wake up
in the morning
just to find
yourself  cried to bed
in the dawn and -
on repeat
on-going
undone

30.4.2019

Selfish

you think
you're all that?
the fact that
you're ripping
with our head?
the things you do
you'll burn us too
with the decision you mislead;
would only speed up
our deathbed

you think
it only
affecting you
you screwed up;
others get
messed up too
with your reckless action
you shatter us in fractions
and your selfish collation
would end us
in cremation

Hastily

It happens
too fast
the distance
was too obvious
I knew
we went through
this hastily
without
over-figured
the corollary

Poet

Every poet
went broken
Gone missing
Learned a lesson
Loved again -
and we all
understand

30.4.2019

Ricochet

I told you once
you were
my ricochet
that only
bounced
when I want it to -
it was
the most
regretful thing
I ever lay
on you
you left me
with your scent
of wrath
and drained me
with your smell
of dismay

29.4.2019

Bribe

Bribe me
with whatever
Your trophy
Your seed
Not even flower
could ever
replace the hole
you left -
That once
was special spot
you placed

20.4.2019