When The Heart Speaks Louder Than Words

When The Heart Speaks Louder Than Words
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Thursday, December 27, 2018

One of those girls

I'm one of those girls
Who gave up her life
Did it all out
For someone 
she despised

I'm one of those girls
who shoved all tequila
crying over someone
who didn't love ya

I'm one of those girls
that stalks every account
and mocks all those girls
that comment him "Babe"

I'm one of those girls
who desperate
for attention
of his dying 
affection
controlling
his connection

I'm one of those girls
that punches all walls
when he snaps
at your door
with loud voice
he bawls

I'm one of those girls
whom eyes were blind
thought everything
is fine
when the truth
you were twined

we're all of them girls
that mistake was once made
will remind us that hate
won't ever manipulate
our true beliefs
on faith


Saturday, July 21, 2018

To all the boys i Loved before


To all the boys
I loved before
I wished I could say
‘I’m sorry’
Once more
There is
One thing
I want
You to know
That I loved
The way
You loved
And that is all

1-7-2018

Angel in disguise

A dying tree
I was indeed
Grown thinner
And much more
Dryer
Rootless tree
Where sun can’t reach
And here I am
Stuck like a leech

Abandoned
From reality
These aimless
Path I went
Outside pavement –
Standing, barely
Blind weak
And draining
 Almost dying
Still not living

And out of no where
There this light
An angel appear
Reach out – oh dear
Holding my hands
And I thought
This must be an angel
It was I thought
Though not a word
Did she muttered
Her hands were warm
Felt I was belonged

7-6-2015

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Malaysia

Democracy
Diversity
And unity
Would make the country
Robust you see
As one of Malaysian
Concerned as everyone
Will fight till bleed
To change the history

Today Malaysia has reborn
As mighty as phoenix
It reign its horn
And new Malaysia
Here we go
From the people
To the people
For the people we vowed

We may run out of modesty
For humble and proud of honesty
But we’ll manage over
This amnesia
Back to back we rise
Here, cheers to Malaysia

9-5-2018
L.T

Sunday, June 24, 2018

Letter to Little One

To my dearest child,

In one weeks time, you'll be out greeting the world that will offers so much adventures and experiences and hopefully you'll gain happiness from there as well.
Everyone are expecting you and please bear in mind that you'll easily get annoyed with uncountable hugs and kisses from them. but worry not my child because these people loves you and really happy to finally meet you. These are my beautiful friends and family and soon will be yours too.

My child,
I wasn't expecting to meet you sooner than as planned. I have to be honest, Mommy had plans and none of it was concerning you. I was afraid that with you in the picture, I won't be able to tick all the goals; even before marrying your father. But that was selfish and foolish of me. Who would have thought that having you was the Key to Everything. You have been my main priority since and because of you, everything just fall into place; career, studies, financial and of course -  Happiness. 

It wasn't easy carrying you around for 9 months (10 months actually: you were overdue) . There were moments when i couldn't eat for 3 months. Every food that was once mommy's favorite had betrayed me and refused to stay in my tummy. Some couldn't barely get through mommy's throat.

At times, mommy get so angry with your father for making me weak and sometimes i felt as though he didn't care enough to understand my inconveniences.

It's not because he really didn't care, he's just plain clueless of what he should do. I know he's trying his hardest, believe me sweetie i know. Both of us are still learning and hopefully out of this, we'll be a great parent for you soon.

Our prayers are;

For you to be a good and wise person, smart enough to know what's good and bad, we want you to be able to experience life as it is but never forget your beliefs. We won't be able to give you a luxurious life but we'll give you enough of everything and enough for you to be grateful foe the things that we have rather hoping for things that we don't. You will learn that wealth is not everything.

Forgive us sweetie if mommy and daddy are lacking in parenting and bad in giving out good examples. Please do understand that we're still learning and oath to be a good parent for you. But always remember that our love for you are beyond any existence in this universe. Nothing is more precious that having you in our life. You have upgrade both mommy and daddy to the next level of life and it matured us both. You have lead us to parental life; which is way more kickass than anything in the world and for that we're thankful and blessed.

Thank you sweet heart; we love you very much.

See you soon,
Love Mommy and Daddy

06-09-2016
Minodung, Tambunan

**Keira was born on the 24th Sept 2016**

Friday, June 22, 2018

Bad

There's moment
that still bump me
at heart
these moment
once linger and stay
not the times
you used to care
but the things
that kept me aware
that you stung like that
always as bad


25-5-2018

Yes.You

You
Yes. You
The one whom
Heart is heavy
And eye's teary
stay strong
there's people
who still need
you
Yes. You


19-5-2018

Bosan

Aku sudah bosan
bosan dengan kata
Aku juga bisa
kata pada kamu
itu cinta -
Tapi cinta itu mana?
Kalau cuman kata saja?

19-5-2018

You II

Even in the
midst of it all
you're still the one
that i would fall

when the nights
getting darker
by the hour
the vision of you
will come right after


14-5-2018

Voice

Our voices
is our choice
so use it wisely
with all our force
point your finger
the right direction
and by that
the power of
Election

9-5-2018

**Historical day for Malaysia when New Malaysia had been born**

Beat with kindness

I can't beat
them with words
I won't beat
them with fist
I'll only do my best
My best by
doing this

Success with
my studies
Arrogant
of kindness
I shall ignore
all the  mess
and prove you
with my
Happiness

6-5-2018

Hold on

There will come a time
When 'give up' is on the line
Knocking at your door
no where to turn to
thinking is the only
option left for you

Stop for a while
try to look back
back when you're
downer than that
today you're stronger
better than ever
to recall those yesteryears
pain will fade over days

so have faith
hold on for another day

21-4-2018

Another Coffee

Whenever i'm
snob and
Being grumpy

The answer
is always
Coffee

15-4-2018

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Judgement

There's no judgement
in any poetry
you poured your heart out
despite the boundaries
you noted what you felt
In Love even when lonely
there's no judgement
in any poetry

19-6-2018

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Masterpiece

Have you been with
someone
who is such an annoyance

you should date him
he's such a mayhem

Never lose
never sorry
Never care
Never worry
even Ponder
Never Mind
I'm such
a blind

14-6-2018

Nice

It's nice to be nice
sometimes
you tell them
"Have a great day"
and see twinkle in their eyes
even their voices
reach the mountain
rejoiced as if
their burden have flatten
it's nice to be nice
sometimes
you'll be surprise
what kindness bring in time

7-6-2018

Power mode - ON

There's no bad thing
about crying it over
cause Power Mode
ON will come
right after

so cry if you must
let it flow till it rusted
but once you're done
it's time - be gone
time to get up
rise with all your might

7-5-2018

Monday, May 7, 2018

03.05.2018

Age is merely
a number
where there's
no such thing
as age-due
you're body and mind
Are bright as you
you lived the life
the best you do
be blessed and merry
and stay beautiful

*throwback shoutout to TyTy : happy birthday

19.01.2018

I may run out
of poems for you
but my heart
will always stays loyal
as loyal as you

*a throwback shoutout to Syra : Happy Birthday

Thursday, April 26, 2018

Grudge II

I did recall and find my fault
that caused you cold
at sudden halt
but don't quite figure
what such I've done
not bit not once
i think i wronged

over and over i call and all
not even one
i'm wrong at all
and there you're still bitter
alone and cold
then you should tell me
straight and bold

Why hold on to that grudge
when you could just
let it go
It doesn't give you any hunch
For leaning or support
when you're at hurt

4-11-2017

Criminal

Some feelings are criminal
It’ll burnout and you'll
Be Ashes in an Instance
Some maybe terminal
Bloomed for a minute
But faded over distance
But for all those
Feelings I once committed to
There's always one

That stays with you

17-4-2018

Happy Mommy

This is how
i define
happiness -

When you smile
it brings
such sweetness

12-4-2018

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Little one

The moment i admit
to your existence
blood rise up to head
in an instance
terrified, scared
worried even
but then i realised
everything is fine then

i'm not scared
not even pissed
i'm glad
just to be frank
knowing that
you're exist
i've listed you
on my top rank

i'll be more carefull
i promise
for this is a pledge
i ready to vow
my little one
don't be anguish
I love you more
than myself right now

23-1-2016


content 101

Tired of hoping
sicked of begging
in this state
of contemplating
yet i'm here
idling - mingling

crazy it may seem
i'm content
with all this scenes

i do not
seek for attention
nor have i
demand for love
i just want you
to know this
that there's no
second request

When i write

Don't judge me
when i write
i found poetry
in every pain
Don't tell me it's wrong
i don't want to fight
cause it often ended in vain
it's the only thing
that made me humane

poetry is not
something expesive
nor something with
a jargon language
it's something
very expressive
that made every
heart aches

it is not
something offending
it's not
something fake
it made you
feel something
for every word
it made you crack

22-1-2016

Bangun

Pada saat dia jatuh
dia akan kembali bangun
bangun  dengan
harapan baru
dengan cita-cita baru
dalam dunia baru
dengan senyuman baru
dia akan bangun

10-1-2016

Unfortunate souls

Unfortunate souls
drifted apart
and broken inside
united in heart
but still they're apart

it will took longer
than they thought
though they even fought
but the feeling
still sore
cuts deeper
to the core
unfortunate souls

10-1-2016

I turn to poetry

I turn to poetry
when i''m in pain
a virus i, myself
couldn't understand
though long black coffee
made me strong
I'm still in missed;
this person i long

i only turn to poetry
when I'm in pain
it gave me feeling
it made me sane
you won't get it
only i can
flunked on life
again and again

this poetry i turn to
when I'm in pain
wished i could stop it
hope i could stand
but this pain is where
my heart desire
the 'once crushed broken'
is finally on fire

6-1-2016

Makan hati

Bila sudah menjadi rutin
segala rasa menjadi imun
kata 'terkilan', 'sakit hati' juga 'geram'
hanya bermakna bila 'dipandang'

1-1-2016

confused

to love
to hate
That is the question
this confusion you led
leaves me in delusion

the feeling is right
the timing is bad
to love or to hate
is certainly
the question

26-3-2018

Content III

Look deeper
those who pretend
Acting lively
like a friend
they'll betray you
in the end
so, be wise
and stay content

26-3-2018

savage

I would rather
hurt myself
than wanting
more of you
how could i be
such a savage
when i should
be happy for you

26-3-2018

Past Tense

Would you
still love me
like you did?
Those times
when we were
such a geek
giving each other
mix-tapes
claiming our love
with phantom and beck
those i cannot
change with a click
but this feeling
will forever
cremated

26-3-2018

Content II

I have the tendency
to push people away
it's not because i'm selfish
or ego for not being
open-up

It's because
i'm too open
too understanding
that i start to
push them away

it cost me
my morale
my heart
it drained me to death

and so here i am
content with myself

sama-sama

Hidup susah sama-sama
itu memang lumrah
tapi kalau bagi susah sahaja
bagus kau duluan terjun sana

22-2-2-2018

Keira

With you
The night
seems brighter
and a lot more
happier

21-2-2018

Left

I left my patience
at home
You've probably
would have known
This anger that i portray
was once was really okay

i left my hope astray
it wasn't meant
to be at bay
But then i recall
The time i had to crawl
scream and bang and bawl
wondering if you
loved me at all

i left my love
somewhere out there
hoping at least
i could've bear
living without you
yearning a clue
and start living
for another day

Friday, March 30, 2018

Lie

You've promised you'll
never make me cry
Who would have thought
It was all a lie -

30-3-2018

Mirror

You're probably
be laughing by now
seeing my life
messed up somehow

But i'm glad
that you're okay
Having someone to look at
every single day

30-3-2018

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Books and Coffee


This little space
I tend to be
Alone with coffee
And books with me
Where these go
Hand in hand perfectly
And blends evenly
You won't disagree

When in doubt
Turn to me
I’ll make you smile
And bring you coffee
When you're stress out
Just come with me
This book I’ll give you
It’ll make you glee
Cause books and coffee
Makes everything
Less - worry

Friday, March 9, 2018

Cinta II

Jika cinta hanya bila bahagia
suka dan tawa pada wajah,
jadi lara sengsara itu apa?
bila duka mula menyinggah?
adakah itu juga cinta?

Mampukah bertahan bila susah bertandang?
bila cubaan mampir demi cubaan
Mampukah kau sandang?
bila cinta itu membinasakan?

kerap kau kata kau sayang
tapi sayang itu cuma perkataan
sering ku dengar kau sayang
tapi sayang tiada pertunjukan

Mungkin bagimu kata sudah bisa
bisa buktikan cinta itu ada
namun semakin ragu ku rasa
bila kau cinta, tapi di sini kau tiada

14-9-2016

**waiting days of labor**

Bila mulut mula bicara

Bila mulut mula bicara
segala kata ubah sejarah
dari fakta jadi auta
perosak utama, rumahtangga

Bila mulut mula memuncung
menuding 'jari' pada orang
yang 'innocent' jadi penyerang
membatu api; hobi sekarang?

Bila mulut mula mencaci
yang bersih jadi daki
hutang budi tak wujud lagi
hanya tampak segala tahi

Binasa bila mulut bicara
Jaga diri, kain sendiri
jangan suka mengata-gata
kelak karma menyapa nanti

13-9-2016

Glue

Me and you
should stick like glue -
forever true
and stay in hue

12-2-2018

Contract

It happens a lot
to me these days
confused, irritated
in so many ways
your words, your promises
won't match your act
and all i see was
a breach of contract

'I love you', 'i do'
Bulls, bulls and bulls -
another trash, a lot more too
is all i ever hear from you

and if we ever
really end it
promise me that you'll
just shut it
for barely words
came out from you
it only hurts
cut through and through

12-2-2018

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

read.weep.revive

Some may not
be able to celebrate
For moments of mourning
is not finish yet
But lets be merry
and live prosperously
and hope for love
surround us with glee

15-2-2018

happy CNY to Fam in Johore


Valentine II

What's the point
of Valentine?
When your heart
is just as blind
you don't even know
i'm exist
As i reach you
you pluck my hand
and release

14-2-2018

Saturday, March 3, 2018

Strong

Because i'm strong
and independent
I don't need a man
to make it happen

31.1.2018

Wanita

Jangan pernah diratah
hatinya seorang wanita
kerna sekali ia terluka
biar sampai selama mana
kamu bersama dia
perasaanya;
bukan lagi cinta
tapi duka

24.1.2018

Perfect - Part II

It's perfect
When her tiny feet
Perfectly fit
In my palms

It's perfect
When she scents
Perfectly smudge
All over me

It's perfect
When she's beautifully
Perfect
It hurt my gut

It's perfect
When it comes
With Her;

Love is perfect

23.1.2018

Perfect - Part I

How come
you say
That love
was perfect?

When all i see
was hurt
and heartache

23.1.2018

Trust II

When you give
your trust
too much

It caused
your heart
broken -
as much

19.1.2018

Letter to you

It seems forever since our last encounter
silent goodbyes with our teary eyes
it took a lot of our time
to even wonder
too occupied to catch up and blabber

i just hope you're well
with everything of course
that everything goes your ways
and brighten your days

even if we don't see each other
talking or laughing or whatever
i still pray for your happiness
forever and always
remembered me as a friend -
and yours till the end


10.09.2017

Her

You weren't happy here
Even when you're together
You know you never were

But because of her
You would go further
Even time turn back
you'll repeat the same mistake
just for her;
Its what makes you happier


29.10.2017

Corrupted

How can you step into
a place so holy
but corrupted at the same time?

Corrupted mind
Corrupted soul
Corrupted faith

21.10.2017

Together, forever

I know one day we'll get better
With all this bulls that tested our anger
To go through each step and another
Where eventually bring us stronger

I just hope you'd do your part
Putting US family as your first SPOT
Giving us reason we're together
Struggling all over;
together - forever

13.10.2017

Religion

Love is my religion
though sometimes i failed
on its mission
It's still one thing i believe in
In darkest days-
it gave such lifting
and showed much promisin'

i don't need prove
to show to people
by going to any sacred temple
to bend and pray
for Whom it may
i believed I've shown it
In my own way

21.10.2017

Dry

Empty and dry
lonely and high
Rusty and messy
Ends with a cry

Give me something
to end this emptiness
something, just anything
any drugs for this craziness

10.5.2017

Cinta

Emangnya dunia ini
cukup cinta?
Di mana-mana
bisa binasa
kawan sendiri
juga difitnah
emangnya dunia ini
penuh cinta?

5.12.2017

Consort

They can say
Whatever they want
They can speculate
Whenever they can
But none what-so-ever
That is really matter
For words are
Merely words
And even if it’s hurt
It only hurt

If you let it consort

8.12.2017

Runner

I'm a runner 
In this family
When you done one
I’ve finished twenty
But you said 
It’s not that hard
You’ve done badly

When you set goals
But forgot your priority
Yet you still
Called yourself
Head of the family

Who's the captain?
Is it you?

Or me?

12.1.2018

Contemplate

It isn't that hard
to contemplate
when you asked me
to be your date

The vision being around you
is completely a sight
i can't wait to view
From day to night

6.1.2018

Brain Loose

Stress came by
And stayed longer
It cracked every muscle
And bend it over

Too much thought
Starting to smoulder
It didn't get any better -

When it 'peeped' DEAD right after

2.1.2018

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Priceless

Time were priceless
we used to hold hands
Now its just plain
As plain as our names

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Stalker

Hey there stalker,
Here's a bit of me
That one you'll never see

A half of smiling me;
Looking at you -
smiling at me

3-11-2017