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I left my patience
at home
You've probably
would have known
This anger that i portray
was once was really okay

i left my hope astray
it wasn't meant
to be at bay
But then i recall
The time i had to crawl
scream and bang and bawl
wondering if you
loved me at all

i left my love
somewhere out there
hoping at least
i could've bear
living without you
yearning a clue
and start living
for another day

"what ifs" and "if only" with "i should've"

It's good to have that self-talk sometimes

we need it for self-motivation

when running to someone else is impossible 

or when there's no trust in anyone - anymore

well, at least for me

i personally feels that; consuming too much of it

will only drag you back to where you're started - believe me, i've been there

it just clarify that you're still holding on to that grudge

hence, that past - the one thing that you

should've let go - long long time ago

there's just too much uncertainty of the past

when there's so much possibility of the future ahead of you

what is done we cannot undone

and the only thing we could do at least is

to keep our heart at faith

and not to guard up so high

because there's just so much beauty

that we haven't' saw yet

it's just too early to give up

not just yet

i always remind myself

to always - always keep my eyes on the road

because there's no point of peeking

the sideways or your rear mirror

when there's aren't much of a life left for you 

Happiness - Not

I've lost happiness along the way

I can't seem to find it anywhere

For all those time we've lost our track

Honestly it cause me a heartbreak

Whose fault is that? No one knew

The distances, the cold, the breaking rules

The 'I have to work' 24/7 a day

Leaving me and daughter - alone and astray

I've lost your touch

You’re Love as much

It seems we've forget to love at all

Letting me breaking alone and fall

I've lost happiness along the way

Can't seem to find it anywhere

28-06-2017