Letter to you

It seems forever since our last encounter
silent goodbyes with our teary eyes
it took a lot of our time
to even wonder
too occupied to catch up and blabber

i just hope you're well
with everything of course
that everything goes your ways
and brighten your days

even if we don't see each other
talking or laughing or whatever
i still pray for your happiness
forever and always
remembered me as a friend -
and yours till the end


10.09.2017

Happiness - Not

I've lost happiness along the way

I can't seem to find it anywhere

For all those time we've lost our track

Honestly it cause me a heartbreak

Whose fault is that? No one knew

The distances, the cold, the breaking rules

The 'I have to work' 24/7 a day

Leaving me and daughter - alone and astray

I've lost your touch

You’re Love as much

It seems we've forget to love at all

Letting me breaking alone and fall

I've lost happiness along the way

Can't seem to find it anywhere

28-06-2017

And I choose ME

All my life
I've been living a lie
kept impressing people
so they could see me in their 'eye'
to like me and take me
as what they wanted me to be

all my life
i kept chasing these  people
so that they could stay close
and won't mingle
close but not closer but close enough

even if it's hurting me inside
and it left me nothing 
but a burning sight
i just don't mind

An aching heart 
and a drained soul
all the consequences
this LOVE i've sold
for wanting to be loved and more
i forgot i should've
love me....first

so i choose to love me instead
rather than someone else
well,not just yet

cause when they decided
to less care and leave
at least i still have Me
and ME is all i need

ENVY

Happiness i see in people
like when they hold their babies
like when they laugh with their loved ones
like when finally somebody got proposed, or engaged, or married

I envy them
i felt happy for them
yet i envy them