"what ifs" and "if only" with "i should've"

It's good to have that self-talk sometimes

we need it for self-motivation

when running to someone else is impossible 

or when there's no trust in anyone - anymore

well, at least for me

i personally feels that; consuming too much of it

will only drag you back to where you're started - believe me, i've been there

it just clarify that you're still holding on to that grudge

hence, that past - the one thing that you

should've let go - long long time ago

there's just too much uncertainty of the past

when there's so much possibility of the future ahead of you

what is done we cannot undone

and the only thing we could do at least is

to keep our heart at faith

and not to guard up so high

because there's just so much beauty

that we haven't' saw yet

it's just too early to give up

not just yet

i always remind myself

to always - always keep my eyes on the road

because there's no point of peeking

the sideways or your rear mirror

when there's aren't much of a life left for you 

Meroyan

Kata mereka itu hormon
Tindakbalas ubat konon
Tapi bagiku ia perasaan
Perasaan sunyi mengundang cobaan

Bila semua harus sendiri
Jenguk bayi, susu dan mandi
Rasa lebih seperti sendiri
Bila lagak more to 'single-motherly'

Moralti diketepi
Bila sokongan tidak dikecapi
Bergunakah "keluarga"?
Bila bilangan hanya "berdua"?

Kata mereka it's medical
Postnatal depression lebih detail
Padahal hanya perasaan
Perasaan Pedih mengundang Royan

09-10-2016

**Royan is a serious issue if not taken seriously
shout out to all husbands; pleas take care of your wives
especially during confinement