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15/09/14

Despite the HUrt: There owez Enough Love for everybody

WOw~~~ hurm... i really don't know where to start.. i don't know what to say... but if you guys keep updating my stories you'll find out sooner or later.. regardless if its the truth or gossip... either way.. it ended on the same finale : NO WHERE.. and yes.. i am back to square one..

i don't have any comment on what actually happen here... i don't really care anymore because all i know is...
If you really committed to that someone; you don't go and fuck around and mess up the trust..

my advice to all the boys.. plz... if you guys still want to mingle around.... then DON"T stay in a steady relationships if you always end up in other's arms... and for you girls who always want what you guys can't have and that is happiness~~~ keep on digging and stealing.. we all know that everything happens for a reason... and that reason can turn out to be you KARMA ...

and i need a Loong  Vacation to ease this pain for a while... chow

~~ Know What you Share: Why not share Happiness?~~

I love to read every now and then; and when i'm done reading books,  i would turn to social media like blogs..just to find some interesting article to read about like documentaries etc.. So one day i was attracted to read Daphne Iking's blog; ELEANOR (since i saw her posting a glimpse of what she's been blogging  on instagram) i took the privilege to dug in her blog.

What i like about her blog is her Opinions, Point of views or whatever thoughts she's been sharing are just as genuine as a baby's laugh ..she is so 'Daphne' that she doesn't have to be bothered whether she should or not pleased everyone's  'appetite'.. and i just looved reading her Pieces ... it's mostly about how the world goes round and what not.. and basically related to our normal-daily-routines..

So recently (though the post was actually long time ago) i've read her Piece about "VERIFY & VILIFY".. it really attracts me in some way because believe it or not.. it's the truth yet we still denying it..  she mentioned about among 'us' the 'keyboard-warriors' (you need to read the blog first in order to understand this) about how badly is the habit of 'post & share' on certain issue regarding latest hot spicy news these days.. and mostly was pretty controversial and some actually caused 'virtual wars' among us. These specific 'communities' are known as "keyboard-warriors". They would express their rage, dissatisfaction towards something that is not certain yet and even if it is they just won't stop spreading anger and rumors(mostly on Facebook, twitter, Instagram, blogs,..etc)  until the other parties breaks down..

She quoted TV Anchors Nazrudin Rahman saying that "we" the post-ter and share-rers tend to comment or share these news updates without verifying the fact first and just.. vilify.. I... surprisingly agreed with bout of them and true.. we tend to do that.. well.. I tend to do that.. and i am ashamed of it.. Spreading rumors without even pointing out the fact first or to verify the truth from both parties (if any) just because i get emotional reading posts on news feeds in Facebook..

If only we could just open our eyes and our mind for awhile and actually have a thought of this... this sensitivity we've caused towards the world.. how small act of this could actually affect us unknowingly.. even if we post/share for good intention; We have to remember that NOT all have the same Thought.. NOT all agreed what we stand for.. Each of us interpret points differently and some of us might get offended easily.. well, aren't us all?

Rather than spreading rumors; why can't we take action to resolve this if necessary .. As the saying Goes: "Action Speaks Louder Than Words" .. kan?

on other thoughts; i think that people who keep posting & sharing news like child abuse, killing, animal abuse.. are literally spreading negativity towards us; human beings.. don't think i don't agree with it.. it's sad and tragic really but...instead of spreading negativity.. why not spreading happiness? I learned that if you share good things like Love, Smile, Laughter, Marriages, Babies, Puppies etc.. it actually lightens people up.. and just imagine if 1 person could share to 10 person and these 10 person shared to 100 person and this could just go global... eventually i believed that we've just created peace throughout the world... and maybe.. just maybe... words like "RACISM, ABUSE, KILLING, RAPE" would never appeared in any dictionaries.. well, thats just me saying..

To end this, i like to Quotes Daphne's Saying "Know what you are sharing..ask yourself "do i really need to post this up for everyone to know or see?" Daphne, your word of wisdom pump up my maturity everyday..

sooooo~~~~Happy New Year People!!!! May This New Phase of time creates nothing but HAPPINESS and ABUNDANCES.. stay Grateful ...

Footnote: Has been following Daphne's Instagram acc and her Blog... am a huge FAN of her and i find her very inspiring.. Big Love sis!!

http://daphneiking.blogspot.com/2013/08/verify-vilify.html

Faith:Nothing else Matters

I've read a book : Pencarian Penemuan by Wani Ardy from her latest book Langit Vanilla

#verse3
Kalau kita tidak gemar ruang kita bekerja
balajar atau menetap
dan kita mencari sumbing sekitarnnya
kita akan jumpa

#verse4
Kalau kita berubah hati
dan kita mencari punca-punca
yang membuat kita berpaling ke baru
kita akan jumpa

#verse5
Kalau kita yakin kita betul
dan kita mencari sifat-sifat jelik
pada dia yang kita percaya salah
kita akan jumpa

#Last verse
Kita akan jumpa semuanya... kerana kita mencari


What did i learn from this? believed in what i feel? people say "ikut hati Mati, Ikut Rasa, Binasa" .. what would i gain from this? Nothing... and it's not worthy...

Whatever the bounderies, the situation, the heartbreak.. or what-so-ever.. it's not worth quiting and running away from it.. i know you'll gonna say " I had enough" .. "my patience has its own limit" .. "i'm tired of trying and waiting" ... Of course all the things we feel does make sense.... after all.. we're only humans.. and humans only can do what they afford to do...

we cannot compare our sufferings with others.... we cannot compare our level of knowledge to others.. we simply cannot say that our experience is worth a decade than others.... why? because we're have all that with the same feelings... the same anger, the same happiness.... even if we've been thru a different kind of heartache... we still feel the same "pain" ... we're humans after all... its only how people perdict their experience by their faith... does they have enough faith to endure it? do they have the amount of love to accept the what-ever-it-is the problem? these kind of feelings... are based from our own prediction... we choose what we want to feel rather than what we should feel... because it's painful so we choose to be sad.. and vulnerable ... and cold.. suddenly we choose to block ourselves from the outside world.... we felt that no one would understand our pain except ourselves.. and thats the problem right there.... we believed that it was always "Me,Myself and I" .. don't you think our Loving God have a say in this? don't you think that every problem we had always has the solution... the answer is always Faith.

Blaming each other will never solve problems... it's like not only you hurt them, but instead you're hurting yourself more.. then what's good about that?
Recently i have been drifted so far from the world.. i locked myself up.. me and my feelings of course... i was sooo stressed about my wedding(financial), my studies... my work.. my relationship with the bosses in the office.. it was too depressing it hurt my head very hard... but i choose to endure by myself.. thinking ive been through this path before.. i can do it again... and so.. i've been silent.. i didnt say anything to my friends or even my fiance... and the outcome was.. disaster... i treated them(bosses & fiance) so bad ... i lose my respect to my bosses... and it hurts them badly (it shows it their eyes) ... my work performances degrading.. and my health as well.. these so called "sickness" was eating me alive.. it was wrong at the very beginning.. because i didnt have that much faith to trust in God... He knew better what's best for me.. it's either i trust Him to be patience with Him or just lose myself to disaster...

You see, what ever the reason you come up from your problems or heartache, The Lord our Loving God understands it very well.. He has been whispering to us telling to bear with it untill the time is come.. the process is always unpredictable.. that is why He wanted us to be patience with Him.. because once you realized His plans.... You know that the solution he come up for you are not just for your current problems.. but for the rest of Your Life...

So as i always remind myself over and over again.... whatever happens in the past... Happens in the PAST.. what matter is now.. and tomorrow.. we may crumbling down or rise up.. but either way, as long as we have faith in God.. Nothing else matters....

Forgiveness

Too often we keep telling the injury story. we get attention and sympathy by being a victim or being right or by being wronged. we seek for cheap supports that kept us stuck in the same mud over and over again. if we invested in someone being the villain, its like we really LOVE being the victim. therefore, we have to let go both characters in the story.

Forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past. of course at first that sounds harsh, but once you let go of what you wanted the past to be; you start changing the present and create a better future.

some say forgiveness is a process. that's true, but it starts with a decision. once you decide to change; you'll know when it's going to be easy to starts forgiving.

-great author: Regina Brett:God Never Blinks-

Open Hearts

precisely at this very moment
the night stir as the moon claims its fist of glory
as the owl seek for company
the wind blew sending its agony

precisely at this very moment
my feet frozen into the depths of the darkest night
it felt wrong to idle
but its tempted the same way
felt like wanna stay and mingle like nobody's care

how i wish i could do the same
to the ticking time that waits for no man
wished I've done what meant to be done
wished I've drained what meant to be drown

Precisely at this very moment
three souls claims for comfort
the aching to be loved and to love
but the fear of risking the love is just brutal
and end up clinging to the old bark... the old pavements ..
the old stone brick that they used to walk on..

And at this very moment... how i missed of being held like a baby..
just when you needed a mother to snuggle you when you cried...
this is where these three souls needed each other...
they needed themselves even more they needed to be heard or held...

Precisely at this very moment...
we've had our hearts opened

*Dedicate this to two strong soul; Ser & Fils ... Always forward.. not Backward ;*

Gratitude : Abundance

The reason why i used to feel down broken; is because all the things that i wrote about being dumped, being hurt, the thoughts to kill myself etc.. i caused my own pain because i focused too much on it, therefore the Universe manifested the feelings towards me... and that why i hurt more and more..

i realized the Power of Words and Thoughts and how it can affect your life unconsciously.

i really believed with the power of words.. every each of expressions can caused us either happiness or sorrow..

This, i learned how to builded myself up.. by feeling grateful with whats left in me.. i'm thankful for everything i have.. i have no more doubts.. and i learned to love myself more.. and therefore; i received LOVE.

"You cannot harm another with your thoughts; You only Harm You"