acceptance ~~~ is all that matters

we often forget whenever we had a fight with our loved ones or our friends~~~ that once we're mad at them .. then.. that's it... it's over...

why make promises if we can't abide to it till the end?? why even agree to stay together when we knew that one day we have to find our self a destiny to fill in... i really don't get it...

there's no such thing as true friend... this is reality.. we're gonna get hurt no matter what... we gonna hurt them.. no exception ... but what matter is that we accept the false not only the beauty from every individuality that we choose to be our friends.. we can't expect that they going to treat us good everyday.. we can't expect them to understand us .. to respect our decisions... we're human.. and we can't do the same to them either... and we sometimes made mistake... but what we can do is to be true and honest... i guess that what u need in any relationship..

you can't just force them to do WHAT YOU WANT ... there's this thing called toleration .. give and take?? fair and square?? acceptance even??

sometimes it felt as if there's just too much changes in our live that we couldn't manage to fit in accordingly... it's not that we've changed... it's just that we've grew up too fast.. and there's soo much thing we wanted to do in our lives...

if i am a good friend ... then i should respect their decision... not to hold them back... right? i don't really have the right to stop them from dreaming...it's their live to decide.. not mine.. in the end it's their happiness that counts .. not mine...

instead i should do the same... search for my dreams... built up my destiny that i was destined to do... find something that can change my life miraculously .... and be happy for everyone...

in the end.. it's all about acceptance... accept people as they are... good and bad.. because both if it... would gave us a hell of experiences ..... and from that we would know who are our true friends~~~

uncertainty

i feel like i'm drifted apart.. up to a point i can't recognized whether you're smiling or just giving that look of despair.. or annoyed..or maybe "whateverrr" ..

i'm trying to understand the situation.. what brings us to this point of uncertainty.. i just couldn't find the clue.. isn't it funny that i keep blaming myself even though i don't really know what's going on here?? really i don't..

all i could do now is just pretend that there's nothing happen and we're like we used to.. but the fact was.. i'm locking myself out.. that's what i'm doing now...

i keep myself busy with work, outstations, studies.. even financial matters.. (things that i choose not to care about whenever i'm down) but it turns out that these are the elements that's really important to me.. it keeps me thinking of something else.. instead of mourning to myself..

i dont' know what i've done.. i really don't.. but i'm sorry if i did... never meant to harm anyone.. one thing for sure.. i also get hurt.. i also.. can feel tormented... my patience has it's limit.. but no matter how low my limit was; i owez brings myself back to the good old days... and it always made me smile.. that's the thing we called acceptance... no matter how hurt you've caused... once people loved you... they owez do~~ and the cuts are just a tiny itsy bits issue that can be erased from our memory...

new year for new path

it's been a while~~

so; this new year of mine.. will be~~~~~~~ Different!!!

i'm gonna change my way of living... my way of thinking.. everything i guess..

it's gonna be a whole new path for me...

everything that i have been dreaming of doing is almost coming true~~~

i just hope that this wont change the way i am...

i wanna be brand new... produced not that perfect but ideal to my new life....

i won't rely on to anybody anymore.... independent woman is want i am...

i don't need sympathy.. what i need is acceptance and support...for whatever i'm doing..

i'm glad i have my friends with... whenever your family back you out.. you always have the rest to hold on to you; your friends.. not just ordinary friends... not just friends that pity you.. or proud of you... but friends that would sit there and nags you.... joins you..... mock you.... mad at you for all the wrong things you've done.... i guess thats what friends are for...

you can't buy friends.. that i am aware... i'm not much of a social or friendly kind of person... but i'm glad that i have friends that look at me and accept me as i am...

this new year will brings much more adventure and challenge and i'm not sure what will happen on this very moment and so on... but i believe that... i'll leave to the All Mighty.. and put everything to Him... i will start to Rely on Him... and believe that everything happens for a reason....

all the list i jotted for this new year; will be the new guidelines for me of becoming a brand new person.... becoming someone that i can be proud of myself... and smile every time i look at the mirror... "that's me" =) happy Great new Year ~~

How single click can jeopardized our life

internet nowadays have this strange aura~~~ they manage to drag anyone.. regardless how old we are... how poor we are.. we owez find thousand chances to sit infront of this blank monitor and type.. F.A.C.E.B.O.O.K.C.O.M ....

i admit.. im a narcassict of facebook.. aren't we all?? we like to share things... to all over the globe... whether the things we like or dislike... posting our emotions every single minutes... thinking of a quotes that might give light to others.. bla bla bla~~~ yeaaa.. i do that a lot...

but beneath those lines.... we actually hurt certain people.. whether we realized it or not...

a single simple word can damage a whole thing.. as the saying goes; "one drop of oil can damage the whole milk" ... its a lesson i must learn... and aware that i won't repeat the same mistake again...

we might think that it doesnt mean a thing.. but think again; whatever you post or comment can ruin ur life... tingu apa jadi ma luca lucas skrng?? it's a crime for doing it.. even if there's no intentions of doing so~~ what we called it? cyber harrassment?? ngam kei tu???

i realized within these few weeks.. since i've deactivated my FB for a while.. i've posted and comment a lot~~~and i admit mostly are very "hurtful".. the things dat i mentioned wasn't actually directed to my friends had been misunderstood.. it's my own fault for doing so..and i suddenly..stupidly~~ let my emotions spread wildy on internet.. it's supposed to be private ba kan?? things that we supposed to share with our frens instead of the monitor~~~ =.=" .... budu juga la sa rasa~~~ i know i've said that "its a space where we can jot down anything without interfier other's life".. buti guess.. we should double check before clicking "post" or "comment"... man~~~~ i should stick to writing diary la kalo gitu~~ huhu

so now... i think i dun really need scrolling FB that much.. at first i thought "gosh, i'm acdicted to this" but i guess.. it's not just FB dat can cheer us up... we can do other things of course...

and i really dun wan to ruin any realtionship dat i cared and loved the most... its too valuable to compared to this application...

You can always come home~~

I don't think he deserves you
I'm gonna come right out and say it
Even though I hardly know you at all
That's what makes this so hard
'Cause I remember he hurt you
Told you he didn't have the time
To see you or even answer your calls
After breaking your heart

I know we barely even started
But I fully believe you could have been the one for me
And I miss what we might have had
Baby I miss what we could have done
I wrote a sad song about it and I'm still pretty bitter
but I'm happy if you're happy *he won*
I still miss you in the night
And I want you to know
If he leaves you cold in the city aching for a lover
Honey, you can always come home.

Yeahhh.
Ohh, do you ever stop to think
That he did it to you once
So he's probably gonna do it again

Or do you defend
That he's an angel of virtue
He made a mistake and it cost him what he loved
But he knows what he's done
He's sorry for it now
Oh, he's never gonna leave you again
Well maybe you're right, but i still believe
That you could have be the one for me
And i miss what we might have had
Honey, i miss what we could have done
I wrote a sad song about it and I'm still pretty bitter
But I'm happy if your happy *he won*
I still miss you in the night
And i want you to know
If he leaves you cold in the city
Aching for a lover
Honey you can always come home
If he leaves you cold in the city
And you're begging for a lover
Honey you can always come home

If i FeeL (in Love with You) - jason

If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
'cause I've been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you
I must be sure
From the very start
That you would love me more than her

If I trust in you oh please
Don't run and hide

If I love you too oh please
Don't hurt my pride like her

'cause I couldn't stand the pain
And I would be sad if our new love was in vain
So I hope you see that I
Would love to love you
And that she will cry
When she learns we are two
If I fell in love with you