Patah Kaki

Patah Kaki
Terkepil-kepil mata
bertengek tanpa destinasi
Menagih simpati?
Bukan sifat empunya kaki
Namun Hati ini terdesak
Terdesak untuk berlari 
Lari jauh dari titik yang sama
Yang tidak berganjak dari tadi

Patah Kaki
Aku pinjamkan kau
Agar kau bisa bangun dan berlari
Agar sama-sama boleh capai mimpi
Tapi bila sudah bangun
Kenapa tak kau kembali?
Kau bawa lari kaki ku ini
Jadi aku?

Patah Kaki
Sakit
Jangan kau datang balik
Cukuplah satu kaki kau curi
Satu lagi untuk aku
Untuk aku yang seorang ini

Kawan

Bukan Kawan dari kecil

Bukan kawan takat sekolah

Kawan Cuma beberapa lama

Lama pun tak lama

Tapi kawan ikhlas

Kawan Ramah

Kawan Mulia

Ya Tuhan

Mana dapat kawan macam ni?

Saat sedih Mengetuk pintu

Kau disisi sedia memicu kunci

Saat Amarah menyerap jiwa

Kopi Hazelnut kau sedia

Mungkin ‘gesture’ tak Nampak

Tapi niat aku Nampak

Ikhlas Niat si kawan

Niat meneman Jiwa berawan

Kau tau

Semua benda kau tau

Kau tau saat aku jatuh

Jatuh jauh dalam sedihku

Sungguh kau tau

Semua benda kau tau

Kau tau bilamana aku diam

Saat itu kau tau aku perlu teman

Aku mau kau bahagia

Aku mau kau gembira

Aku mau kau Berjaya

Cukuplah kasihankan aku saja

This is your moment

This is your time

Jadi, terbanglah kawan

It’s your time to shine

Tiada kata setulus jiwa

Yang dapat gambarkan

Bersyukurnya aku

Bertuahnya aku

Dapat kau jadi kawan


**dedicated to a dear friend.. Happy B'day Wawa :)

Hubungan-Segera

Macam Mee Maggi
3-in-1 terus boleh 'ngap'
Kalau Mee segera cuma 3 minit
ini mungkin cuma 3 hari
bolehlah
daripada tiada

Tak Sama

KAU dan AKU tak sama
perlukah dibanding-banding?

KAU dan AKU tak sama
Takkan nak explain lagi?

KAU dan AKU tak sama
Sakit kau tak sama dengan sakit AKU

BETUL..
KAU dan AKU tak sama
Kita hanya Manusia cuma


15/09/14

Despite the HUrt: There owez Enough Love for everybody

WOw~~~ hurm... i really don't know where to start.. i don't know what to say... but if you guys keep updating my stories you'll find out sooner or later.. regardless if its the truth or gossip... either way.. it ended on the same finale : NO WHERE.. and yes.. i am back to square one..

i don't have any comment on what actually happen here... i don't really care anymore because all i know is...
If you really committed to that someone; you don't go and fuck around and mess up the trust..

my advice to all the boys.. plz... if you guys still want to mingle around.... then DON"T stay in a steady relationships if you always end up in other's arms... and for you girls who always want what you guys can't have and that is happiness~~~ keep on digging and stealing.. we all know that everything happens for a reason... and that reason can turn out to be you KARMA ...

and i need a Loong  Vacation to ease this pain for a while... chow

~~ Know What you Share: Why not share Happiness?~~

I love to read every now and then; and when i'm done reading books,  i would turn to social media like blogs..just to find some interesting article to read about like documentaries etc.. So one day i was attracted to read Daphne Iking's blog; ELEANOR (since i saw her posting a glimpse of what she's been blogging  on instagram) i took the privilege to dug in her blog.

What i like about her blog is her Opinions, Point of views or whatever thoughts she's been sharing are just as genuine as a baby's laugh ..she is so 'Daphne' that she doesn't have to be bothered whether she should or not pleased everyone's  'appetite'.. and i just looved reading her Pieces ... it's mostly about how the world goes round and what not.. and basically related to our normal-daily-routines..

So recently (though the post was actually long time ago) i've read her Piece about "VERIFY & VILIFY".. it really attracts me in some way because believe it or not.. it's the truth yet we still denying it..  she mentioned about among 'us' the 'keyboard-warriors' (you need to read the blog first in order to understand this) about how badly is the habit of 'post & share' on certain issue regarding latest hot spicy news these days.. and mostly was pretty controversial and some actually caused 'virtual wars' among us. These specific 'communities' are known as "keyboard-warriors". They would express their rage, dissatisfaction towards something that is not certain yet and even if it is they just won't stop spreading anger and rumors(mostly on Facebook, twitter, Instagram, blogs,..etc)  until the other parties breaks down..

She quoted TV Anchors Nazrudin Rahman saying that "we" the post-ter and share-rers tend to comment or share these news updates without verifying the fact first and just.. vilify.. I... surprisingly agreed with bout of them and true.. we tend to do that.. well.. I tend to do that.. and i am ashamed of it.. Spreading rumors without even pointing out the fact first or to verify the truth from both parties (if any) just because i get emotional reading posts on news feeds in Facebook..

If only we could just open our eyes and our mind for awhile and actually have a thought of this... this sensitivity we've caused towards the world.. how small act of this could actually affect us unknowingly.. even if we post/share for good intention; We have to remember that NOT all have the same Thought.. NOT all agreed what we stand for.. Each of us interpret points differently and some of us might get offended easily.. well, aren't us all?

Rather than spreading rumors; why can't we take action to resolve this if necessary .. As the saying Goes: "Action Speaks Louder Than Words" .. kan?

on other thoughts; i think that people who keep posting & sharing news like child abuse, killing, animal abuse.. are literally spreading negativity towards us; human beings.. don't think i don't agree with it.. it's sad and tragic really but...instead of spreading negativity.. why not spreading happiness? I learned that if you share good things like Love, Smile, Laughter, Marriages, Babies, Puppies etc.. it actually lightens people up.. and just imagine if 1 person could share to 10 person and these 10 person shared to 100 person and this could just go global... eventually i believed that we've just created peace throughout the world... and maybe.. just maybe... words like "RACISM, ABUSE, KILLING, RAPE" would never appeared in any dictionaries.. well, thats just me saying..

To end this, i like to Quotes Daphne's Saying "Know what you are sharing..ask yourself "do i really need to post this up for everyone to know or see?" Daphne, your word of wisdom pump up my maturity everyday..

sooooo~~~~Happy New Year People!!!! May This New Phase of time creates nothing but HAPPINESS and ABUNDANCES.. stay Grateful ...

Footnote: Has been following Daphne's Instagram acc and her Blog... am a huge FAN of her and i find her very inspiring.. Big Love sis!!

http://daphneiking.blogspot.com/2013/08/verify-vilify.html

Faith:Nothing else Matters

I've read a book : Pencarian Penemuan by Wani Ardy from her latest book Langit Vanilla

#verse3
Kalau kita tidak gemar ruang kita bekerja
balajar atau menetap
dan kita mencari sumbing sekitarnnya
kita akan jumpa

#verse4
Kalau kita berubah hati
dan kita mencari punca-punca
yang membuat kita berpaling ke baru
kita akan jumpa

#verse5
Kalau kita yakin kita betul
dan kita mencari sifat-sifat jelik
pada dia yang kita percaya salah
kita akan jumpa

#Last verse
Kita akan jumpa semuanya... kerana kita mencari


What did i learn from this? believed in what i feel? people say "ikut hati Mati, Ikut Rasa, Binasa" .. what would i gain from this? Nothing... and it's not worthy...

Whatever the bounderies, the situation, the heartbreak.. or what-so-ever.. it's not worth quiting and running away from it.. i know you'll gonna say " I had enough" .. "my patience has its own limit" .. "i'm tired of trying and waiting" ... Of course all the things we feel does make sense.... after all.. we're only humans.. and humans only can do what they afford to do...

we cannot compare our sufferings with others.... we cannot compare our level of knowledge to others.. we simply cannot say that our experience is worth a decade than others.... why? because we're have all that with the same feelings... the same anger, the same happiness.... even if we've been thru a different kind of heartache... we still feel the same "pain" ... we're humans after all... its only how people perdict their experience by their faith... does they have enough faith to endure it? do they have the amount of love to accept the what-ever-it-is the problem? these kind of feelings... are based from our own prediction... we choose what we want to feel rather than what we should feel... because it's painful so we choose to be sad.. and vulnerable ... and cold.. suddenly we choose to block ourselves from the outside world.... we felt that no one would understand our pain except ourselves.. and thats the problem right there.... we believed that it was always "Me,Myself and I" .. don't you think our Loving God have a say in this? don't you think that every problem we had always has the solution... the answer is always Faith.

Blaming each other will never solve problems... it's like not only you hurt them, but instead you're hurting yourself more.. then what's good about that?
Recently i have been drifted so far from the world.. i locked myself up.. me and my feelings of course... i was sooo stressed about my wedding(financial), my studies... my work.. my relationship with the bosses in the office.. it was too depressing it hurt my head very hard... but i choose to endure by myself.. thinking ive been through this path before.. i can do it again... and so.. i've been silent.. i didnt say anything to my friends or even my fiance... and the outcome was.. disaster... i treated them(bosses & fiance) so bad ... i lose my respect to my bosses... and it hurts them badly (it shows it their eyes) ... my work performances degrading.. and my health as well.. these so called "sickness" was eating me alive.. it was wrong at the very beginning.. because i didnt have that much faith to trust in God... He knew better what's best for me.. it's either i trust Him to be patience with Him or just lose myself to disaster...

You see, what ever the reason you come up from your problems or heartache, The Lord our Loving God understands it very well.. He has been whispering to us telling to bear with it untill the time is come.. the process is always unpredictable.. that is why He wanted us to be patience with Him.. because once you realized His plans.... You know that the solution he come up for you are not just for your current problems.. but for the rest of Your Life...

So as i always remind myself over and over again.... whatever happens in the past... Happens in the PAST.. what matter is now.. and tomorrow.. we may crumbling down or rise up.. but either way, as long as we have faith in God.. Nothing else matters....