Grudge II

I did recall and find my fault
that caused you cold
at sudden halt
but don't quite figure
what such I've done
not bit not once
i think i wronged

over and over i call and all
not even one
i'm wrong at all
and there you're still bitter
alone and cold
then you should tell me
straight and bold

Why hold on to that grudge
when you could just
let it go
It doesn't give you any hunch
For leaning or support
when you're at hurt

4-11-2017

Criminal

Some feelings are criminal

It’ll burnout and you'll

Be Ashes in an Instance

Some maybe terminal

Bloomed for a minute

But faded over distance

But for all those

Feelings I once committed to

There's always one

That stays with you

17-4-2018

Happy Mommy

This is how
i define
happiness -

When you smile
it brings
such sweetness

12-4-2018

Little one

The moment i admit
to your existence
blood rise up to head
in an instance
terrified, scared
worried even
but then i realised
everything is fine then

i'm not scared
not even pissed
i'm glad
just to be frank
knowing that
you're exist
i've listed you
on my top rank

i'll be more carefull
i promise
for this is a pledge
i ready to vow
my little one
don't be anguish
I love you more
than myself right now

23-1-2016

content 101

Tired of hoping
sicked of begging
in this state
of contemplating
yet i'm here
idling - mingling

crazy it may seem
i'm content
with all this scenes

i do not
seek for attention
nor have i
demand for love
i just want you
to know this
that there's no
second request

When i write

Don't judge me
when i write
i found poetry
in every pain
Don't tell me it's wrong
i don't want to fight
cause it often ended in vain
it's the only thing
that made me humane

poetry is not
something expesive
nor something with
a jargon language
it's something
very expressive
that made every
heart aches

it is not
something offending
it's not
something fake
it made you
feel something
for every word
it made you crack

22-1-2016

Bangun

Pada saat dia jatuh
dia akan kembali bangun
bangun  dengan
harapan baru
dengan cita-cita baru
dalam dunia baru
dengan senyuman baru
dia akan bangun

10-1-2016

Unfortunate souls

Unfortunate souls
drifted apart
and broken inside
united in heart
but still they're apart

it will took longer
than they thought
though they even fought
but the feeling
still sore
cuts deeper
to the core
unfortunate souls

10-1-2016

I turn to poetry

I turn to poetry
when i''m in pain
a virus i, myself
couldn't understand
though long black coffee
made me strong
I'm still in missed;
this person i long

i only turn to poetry
when I'm in pain
it gave me feeling
it made me sane
you won't get it
only i can
flunked on life
again and again

this poetry i turn to
when I'm in pain
wished i could stop it
hope i could stand
but this pain is where
my heart desire
the 'once crushed broken'
is finally on fire

6-1-2016

Makan hati

Bila sudah menjadi rutin
segala rasa menjadi imun
kata 'terkilan', 'sakit hati' juga 'geram'
hanya bermakna bila 'dipandang'

1-1-2016

confused

to love
to hate
That is the question
this confusion you led
leaves me in delusion

the feeling is right
the timing is bad
to love or to hate
is certainly
the question

26-3-2018

Content III

Look deeper
those who pretend
Acting lively
like a friend
they'll betray you
in the end
so, be wise
and stay content

26-3-2018

savage

I would rather
hurt myself
than wanting
more of you
how could i be
such a savage
when i should
be happy for you

26-3-2018

Past Tense

Would you
still love me
like you did?
Those times
when we were
such a geek
giving each other
mix-tapes
claiming our love
with phantom and beck
those i cannot
change with a click
but this feeling
will forever
cremated

26-3-2018

Content II

I have the tendency
to push people away
it's not because i'm selfish
or ego for not being
open-up

It's because
i'm too open
too understanding
that i start to
push them away

it cost me
my morale
my heart
it drained me to death

and so here i am
content with myself

sama-sama

Hidup susah sama-sama
itu memang lumrah
tapi kalau bagi susah sahaja
bagus kau duluan terjun sana

22-2-2-2018

Keira

With you
The night
seems brighter
and a lot more
happier

21-2-2018

Left

I left my patience
at home
You've probably
would have known
This anger that i portray
was once was really okay

i left my hope astray
it wasn't meant
to be at bay
But then i recall
The time i had to crawl
scream and bang and bawl
wondering if you
loved me at all

i left my love
somewhere out there
hoping at least
i could've bear
living without you
yearning a clue
and start living
for another day