Time Loop

Have you ever been
so hurt
you cried
while steering
your direction
back to realization
just to grasp
that no one is there
waiting for you
with a smiling stare

have you ever been
in denial
you struggle
keeping your pose
holding yourself
from shouting his name
begging for reasons
you'll never comprehend

have you ever been
so fake-
you acting so brave
you wreck and torn
but stubbornly return
putting yourself back
hoping that others
won't recognize
the cracks

have you ever been
in loop -
that you wake up
in the morning
just to find
yourself  cried to bed
in the dawn and -
on repeat
on-going
undone

30.4.2019

Selfish

you think
you're all that?
the fact that
you're ripping
with our head?
the things you do
you'll burn us too
with the decision you mislead;
would only speed up
our deathbed

you think
it only
affecting you
you screwed up;
others get
messed up too
with your reckless action
you shatter us in fractions
and your selfish collation
would end us
in cremation

Hastily

It happens
too fast
the distance
was too obvious
I knew
we went through
this hastily
without
over-figured
the corollary

Poet

Every poet
went broken
Gone missing
Learned a lesson
Loved again -
and we all
understand

30.4.2019

Ricochet

I told you once
you were
my ricochet
that only
bounced
when I want it to -
it was
the most
regretful thing
I ever lay
on you
you left me
with your scent
of wrath
and drained me
with your smell
of dismay

29.4.2019

Bribe

Bribe me
with whatever
Your trophy
Your seed
Not even flower
could ever
replace the hole
you left -
That once
was special spot
you placed

20.4.2019

I am Fine

I am fine
don't mind me
in a few minutes
I'll be alright;
really?
is that so?
weren't you crying
under the table
when your call
wasn't answered
at all?

it's okay
it'll work out
anyway
i always kept
my pose at ease -
really?
is that so?
i thought i heard
you stomping around
holding a fist
punching the air
while
gritting your teeth

i am strong
don't pity me
i have faith -
do you really?
then why your eyes
flickering with lies
and your heart burned
gasping for air
pointing out
you're alone
with your head down
hoping for space
escapes from the lenses
you keep screaming
that you're fine
you're okay
the burden you take
when you're is taken aback
with questions
that they stated
saying that you're fake

don't hide your feelings
say what you meant
a heart meant for healing
it's not the end
it's okay
to fall and cry
it's not wrong
to punch and bawls
this heartache
this hate
will slowly fade
and turn the day
from night
we're humans
after all
incapable to fight
this heartbreak
we tend to hide

is it wrong?
to show and tell?
what this heartfelt
when love is frail?
why ashamed
to admit your gloom
when it's not yours
to blame its doom?
fine;
we're broken
but doesn't it mean
we're just human?
rather than hiding
and pretend you're gay
laughing and joking
as if you were okay?

I'm okay
don't mind me
is it really?
you're fine
completely?
just stop;
stop it
stop it
stop it stop it;
it's okay
to say you're not
we're human anyway

regardless of our fright
say it freely
say it loud
say you're greedy
you're allowed
this feeling -
this hurt;
this easing -
it will invert
when I said
i was hurt
it doesn't mean
i am dead
it just meant
i need space
from all this haze
of uncertain maze

i know
i''ll get by
from everything
that prepared me
to die
even if
you're hurt
from that person so curt;
this despair will bare
from time to time
it will care

23.3.2019